I have vivid memories of sailing on the big container ships with my Master Mariner father. I have memories that go back to me as a 6 year old…my daughter’s age right now. One of my clearest memories are of standing on the monkey island of the ship looking down into the dark ocean below, mesmerized as I watched the ship cut through the ocean wake. I loved looking up at the stars. They’ve never been as bright and clear as they were those days at sea, surrounded by miles of dark black ocean and barely enough lights to be recognized as a ship sailing through the night sea. My dad taught me about Orion’s Belt, Sirius, The Big Dipper and a few other popular constellations. After all he had trained how to sail ships by navigating the stars; no GPS existed during those days. Those were some of the happiest times in my life. I loved staring at the beautiful constellations and for years and years later, long after I no longer sailed as much, because friends became more important than family (hello, I was a teenager!), whenever my dad was away, I just had to look up at the night sky, pick out Orion’s Belt and immediately feel connected to him. The stars always called me and brought me closer to him.
This morning I went for a run. I literally bounded out of bed at 5:30 am with more energy than I have had in months. The sky was jet black as I left my house, and as I rounded out of my street onto the next one on my route, I looked up at the early morning sky and was instantly transported back to my ‘ship days.’ The stars were crystal clear, beckoning me as they did in years past. This time, it wasn’t to connect me to my dad, who now lives less than 10 minutes from me; no, this time it was to validate the biggest decision of my recent life.
On one of those nights out at sea, I remember setting these three seemingly far off goals in a very vague ‘when I grow up I want to marry Jon Bon Jovi sort of way:’
- Married by 30 (got married the year I turned 30)
- First baby by 35 (had my girl at 34)
- Retired from working for someone else by 40 (40 this year)
I am thrilled to share with you that as of 11/1/13 that goal will become a reality! I am finally walking away from being employed to fulfill someone else’s dreams so that I can work at fulfilling my own dreams.
I have had some INCREDIBLE people in my life lately. People who have helped me come to this decision; who have stood by me with countless conversations and what if scenarios – Thank you Marilyn, Ken, Shannah, Robin, Donna, Mo and most important of all my incredibly supportive husband Jason.
These next few months promise to be exhilarating, terrifying and exciting beyond measure! I am more than up for the challenge.
Today’s star-studded morning sky beckoned me. There is a star out there with my name on it! It’s calling me to reach out and grab it.
I’m on my way. Will you join me?